pretty hollow words

Walking away from my heart has been the hardest thing I have ever done. I never felt, wanted or longed for one’s soul the way I did yours. It was in walking and distance that I realized that the blood that pumped eagerly through my veins, pumped with such intensity at the wrong time. Hearts previously broken, were only slightly mended by the fear of being alone.

While being alone, I learned to love. I fell in love with life, the good within, forgave my bad and began to feel for another. But never did I once forget about you. The same blood eagerly pumps through my veins, my cheeks blush at the slight mention of your name. It’s almost like pure torture a never ending reminder that I was left alone to discover what was left inside. 

I have cried, laughed and loved over you. I believed my silence would protect me, but it only hurt me. I found my mind wandering to you just as I thought I had finally moved on. You’d appear in my thoughts, sneak into my dreams and once again your existence would burn into my heart. 

Standing here, I will not run. I will face the walk, knowing that I am ready to trust, to give and to enjoy the journey. The question is are you willing to walk beside me??  For it’s not the long walk home that will change this heart, but the welcome I receive at the restart.

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can’t live without. I say, fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who will love you the same way back. How do you find him? Well, you forget your head, and you listen to your heart. And I’m not hearing any heart. Cause the truth is, honey, there’s no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love, well, you haven’t lived a life at all. But you have to try, cause if you haven’t tried, you haven’t lived. 

Meet Joe Black

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only.
She loved before she may love again.
But if she loves you now, what else matters?
She’s not perfect, you aren’t either,
and the two of you may never be perfect together
but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, 
hold onto her and give her the most you can.
She may not be thinking about you
every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break her heart.
So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze 
and don’t expect more than she can give.
Smile when she makes you happy, 
let her know when she makes you mad,
and miss her when she’s not there.”

Bob Marley

There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.

John Lennon